Art...

Artist Natalie Irish doesn't use a paint brush...she uses her lips! Check out the amazing artwork that she's done!

restless and longing...

I just read this great poem by theologian Dietrich Bonhoeffer, that sums up how I'm feeling as I wait. Here's my favorite bit...

Am I really that which other men tell of?
Or am I only what I myself know of myself?
Restless and longing and sick, like a bird in a cage,
struggling for breath, as though hands were compressing my throat
yearning for colours, for flowers, for the voices of birds,
thirsting for words of kindness, for neighbourliness,
tossing in expectation of great events,
powerlessly trembling for friends at an infinite distance,
weary and empty at praying, at thinking, at making,
faint, and ready to say farewell to it all.

Who am I? This or the Other?
Am I one person today and tomorrow another?
Am I both at once? Hypocrite before others,
and before myself a contemptible woebegone weakling?
Or is something within me still like a beaten army
fleeing in disorder from victory already achieved?

Who am I? They mock me, these lonely questions of mine.

Whoever I am, Thou knowest, O God, I am thine!

Who knew the Deathstar had a library?!

Abraham, Sarah and my Uterus...

A couple of years ago, my doctor discovered that I had a pretty large tumor in my uterus. To make a long story short, it was benign, and I had surgery to remove it. In the process I ended up saying bye bye to my uterus.

Yesterday in church, the worship leader shared about Abraham and Sarah. A little background...In Genesis God promises a child to this couple. The only problem was that Abraham was 100 years old, and his wife Sarah was barren.

I started thinking about the fact that God made them this promise, even though physically it was impossible for them to have children. Abraham and Sarah struggled to believe it could happen. Sarah even laughed at the thought.

"Then one of them said, "I will return to you about this time next year, and your wife, Sarah, will have a son!" Sarah was listening to this conversation from the tent. Abraham and Sarah were both very old by this time, and Sarah waslong past the age of having children. So she laughed silently to herself and said, "How could a worn out woman like me enjoy such pleasure, especially when my master (my husband) is also so old?" Then the Lord said to Abraham, "Why did Sarah laugh?...Is anything too hard for the Lord?"
-Genesis 18:10-12,13b

Do I do that?

Does God want to do amazing miraculous things in my life that I doubt because they seem impossible?

For a moment I imagined myself in Sarah's shoes, and I knew that if God came to me tomorrow and told me I was going have a son, at 41 with no husband and no uterus, I might have a little chuckle myself!

But is anything too hard for the Lord? The answer of course is no.

Sarah's womb was barren and dead. Abraham's sperm count was down and out. But God stepped into the dead and barren area, and gave them life. He planted a seed in a place that no one believed anything could grow. And out of that seed, Abraham and Sarah go their promised son...Issac.

So don't give up on the things that God has promised you. If they seem impossible, rejoice! God's just giving himself a stage in your life to show off a little. He's going to come into a situation that this physical world deems impossible and dead, and he's going to make amazing things happen. He's going to bring life.